Last night I navigated my way across the tube system to Queen Mary’s Mile End campus to attend the first, of what I hope will be many, meetings to discuss and explore what it is to be a historian. Actually to be exact, what it is to be a historian now, especially a fledgling historian, of the PG/ECR breed.
Hosted by a joint committee of BBK & QMUL students and facilitated by the Raphael Samuel History Centre, I was glad to see some familiar faces that I will never tire of listening to, as well as some new faces, which I look forward to hearing more from. Also in attendance were the two centre directors from QMUL and Birkbeck, Professor Barbara Taylor and Dr Matt Cook.
The theme of the evening was to discuss to discuss the question of Why be a Historian? and Studying History Now. A focus of the discussion was the question ‘what is History for?’ and ‘who is History for?’, as well as exploring issues surrounding the responsibilities of the historian.
For me, what was most exciting, and useful, about the meeting, was that it was not about our research, rather it was about the uses of our research, and about us as the researcher. We all know that doing a PhD, and being a historian, is a lonely path, and often the only spaces we get to engage with one another is at conferences, where discussion ultimately turns to ‘What is your research’, ‘Have you read X,Y,Z’, and ‘Oh that was done in 19XX’. But we seldom get the opportunity to discuss, or are asked, why we do the research we do, or who we are as researchers.
At conferences, seminars, workshops and department events I have often asked my fellow postgraduates what led them to their research, more out of nosiness and curiosity than as an extensional question. I am interested in how people come across the amazing subjects that they research, such as the cultural representations of psychopaths, to the medical and cultural place of postnatal distress. However I was staggered to be rebuffed quite a few times when I have asked this question, some people even rolled their eyes stating that it was a really boring question to ask. To be honest, I don’t think I would have enjoyed their answer anyway, and I feel that they might have misconstrued my inquiry as more a banal uninterested question about their research, rather than it being about them.
So you can imagine my excitement when I first saw the email advertising the event, and also my relief that it was not only me who asked this question, or was interested. Also you can imagine my utter delight as the event progressed, as the presenters were indeed discussing why and how they came to do their research, why it matters to them on a personal level. They also provided an insight into how this informs and shapes their approach, and why they engage with the subject and produce the history that they do.
A common theme across the four presentations, two from BBK students, two from QMUL students, was questions over representation, engagement, purpose and use. How history provides answers, stories, insights and alternative views to questions, events, activities and assumptions.
It was also interesting to note the language that was used by many of the speakers, and by the audience, words/terms such as ‘partial truths’, ‘stories’, ‘experiences’, no mention of the word fact, though data and information did feature.
It was the word story that really grabbed my attention, as that is what history is about, stories, narratives, finding our place in the story, or another re-telling of the story that appeals to our view of history, or of ourselves.
There was also the mention of how one does history, how we can work with others doing other types of history, namely family historians, and local historians, community groups and organisations, who bring with them not only stories and insights, they bring a wealth of knowledge and insight that is often missing in ‘official’ documents and sources.
This led to a wonderful point on the use of history, especially in terms of heritage, activism, and representation. Matt Cook discussed his interest in the way that community history and heritage projects were funded, and the changing trends and interests of groups and projects funded by the HLF. An important question and point which he raised was what happens when the project is over to the product of these events and projects, many of which culminate in an exhibition. Quite often it is the process of ‘doing’ the history, of researching, of collecting, of investigating, and of producing that is the transformative agent, rather than the end product, or the ‘history’ itself.
This led me to think several things about my research, namely
A) what is the history that I am doing, rather than the broader subject or type of history it is.
B) what are my aims for it in terms of my own personal connection with it
C) what is my role as a historian in being active and activist with my research.
This also led to me to really think about who I am as a historian, as a scholar, and as someone investigating a sensitive subject (I research the social history of ‘idiots’ and ‘imbeciles’ in the long nineteenth century). It also led me to think about my research approach and my angle, the way I interpret, understand, use, and analyse sources, stories, narratives and information. How are these informed by me, and my own personal history? I am a woman, I am working-class, I am a parent, I am a lone-parent, I am a parent of a female child, I am a parent of a child who has a syndrome/disorder/learning disability, I am a mature student, I am a former professional, a creative, a former political, green and animal rights protester, I am also a feminist, a child of the 80s, and a teenager of the 90s, and a member, whether willingly or not, of Gen-X.
All these personal facets and attributes inform and enhance my research rather than clouding or colouring my view, or distorting my historical lens. Coming away from the meeting I felt elated and inspired, as well as safe and secure in the fact that I was not alone in being actively reflective and thoughtful about my past and my present informing my research, the form it takes, the avenues it will turn down, and the varied pathways that it will cross – and all the wonderful discussions it will meet, inspire, encourage and produce.
I look forward to future meetings where the content of our research in terms of the written thesis, the looming conference paper, or the never ending chapter will be on the back burner, and we can explore and discuss ourselves as historians, and the wider purpose, use, application and meaning of our research can be explored.